I know him but i know you better. I chose you but you betrayed me. He never cared for me but you did. That's where the pain is more. If you pushed me like he did, then i won't have this feeling for you. You are my best friend, you want for more but yet, you are afraid to have commitment. Thank you very much, coward for leave me in a limbo when i knew there was a boundary between us. If you be like anyone else, say hi and just that, maybe i won't be paralysed like this. But you dared talked to me, called me, gave me hopes and denied everything that i suspected. Then you left me and gave a reason you were busy. If i was just an idiot, if i was so clueless that there was something between us, then i wouldn't feel the way you stabbed me at the back. I thought you knew, history taught us. We got trust issues, remember? Guess you failed in history because you forgot what i am capable of. I can crush you. *evil laughs
Thursday, 13 February 2014
Boyfriend drama, again >·<
This gap year teaches me a lot. I lost my love and found a new one, who is an old history. I tried my best to cherish him like i used to, but i can't because trust issues always a problem between us. It makes me want to go to him, again. The one with the capital FAAL. This is my choice and this is my life. Let me decide before the deadline closed.
I can't love you like i loved him. It is too soon for me to plant those deep feelings for you. It took two years for me to have faith on him, trusted him, loved him no matter what he did. You are my best friend, you should know better. We had history and it always me. Let's not push it, shall we? Let's put our friendship in hiatus so that let me decide who owns my heart.
Guys' rule
- they hate it when you talk about your current crush/ex
- they hate it when you keep talking about your weight and how you sacrifice yourself to look good
- they hate it when you control them just like they hate it when you still talking when they stop
- they hate it when you butt into their private lives albeit you are confirmed to be theirs
- they just hate it when you start being silly whereas they hate it when you're asking for more
- they hate it when they can't control you
- guys just hate whatever girls do; they just love what they love
- they hate it when you can't understand them like they think they understand you well
*these facts are super shit