I want to break free

Sal syndrome is coming again
I am enchanted by his spell
I am no longer mine
No matter how hard i try to move on
It is always him
All the time
God knows how hard i tried to forget him
But dear me just love to judge
No one can compare him
The history that we had together
The sadness, the broken heart from him
All this memories
Help me please
I want to have my own life
Without thinking how sal thinks
Sal is not even mine
Let alone he cares what i think
But he is someone that control me
And i do not know how to be free

Sal, stop please.

No matter how desperate i want to try something to, i just have to accept the fact that my world revolves around him. I feel sired to him. Enchanted like a magic spell, when i want to step further with other guys, i always withdraw. Do i love him so much and have to rely on him for the rest of my life?