world is spinning like a tyre

i couldn't solve it. i am not strong to fight it. i don't meant to be brave. no matter how many times i try, the below is the most suitable place for me. i can't do this any longer! i can't pretend that i am fine whereas inside my heart, it is full of wounds. i can't be patient to the things that i'm not deserved to be condemned with. if i am weak, people shouldn't expose it more. it's not like when they reveal, i will be better.i won't. i will feel worse. stop pretending to be nice, because fitnah is the most horrible thing a person can ever do.