For You

Dear Sal,
If you're reading this, it means you know that i avoid you. I'm sorry, but this friend thing is a burden for me. I hate to know that I can't be myself around you. A day without you could kill me and I just want to get used to it when you're really gone. I thought being a friend can make me not losing you. I was wrong. I always want it more. I just want us to stop being friends. How I should take care about your feelings every time we talked and forget about mine makes me feel trapped and I have no freedom. So, I let you go and you'll be free without me. I love you more as a friend, but I can't lie to myself each time we talked, I don't want more than friends. I know I'm being selfish and I'll cry in the meantime to forget you... but this is just temporary. Then, you'll be out of my life and I can start fresh. Actually, I don't want to make more memories with you. The more memories we have, the harder for me to forget you. You should just left at that time. You weren't suppose to come back. But you overwhelmed me and I just... lost. We've grown up, haven't we? Let me get this straight. Each time you left, it left a hole. So, for the sake of our future, you'll do the same. Let me go. Forget everything about me. Please think like we're strangers. Forget about our memories together. Just forget everything if you can. God, my tears are falling. Sal, please take care of yourself, alright? There are many people that care for you. I have my family, too. So, both of us will be fine.

Bye, Sal. Hope you have a better friend than I soon...