why do i feel the lust inside of me? is it because he is too close and this is the most working friendship i ever have to start a move? it is hazardous for me...
i don't want him to leave. but i don't want him to stay if he's giving me this... satisfaction that i am not suppose to have. actually, it makes me want more~ i always love someone with his heart.. and the lust is just a background scene. but this love, fire and passion and lust... makes me stop breathing. it is wrong, i know... should i resist him?
practically it becomes like that because i am not supposed to be close with my crush. MFZ, of course is a very special case. he is incomparable with all the other guys that i had a crush on. but AS, he is something else, too. but in a bad way that destructs me~!
or maybe i'm just feeling sick and dying.. so that's why i have this odd feeling. but seriously, it's not like i never had a crush on my classmate! but duh, he just makes the fire... and the jacket.. ummph, really? what the hell is wrong with him making that to me? just wear t-shirt and wear hideously.
he's handsome. he's smart. he can sing. he is every girl's dream. but here's on thing. i want him to be mine but not in a good way... why can't anyone be like sal??? no lust, just feeling and emotional attachment. feeling like the person is the other half of you... hmmph, when can i stop the search?
mr the one, if you exist, just come when i need you... and no, no, no... you don't have to fill my mind with lust~ i have had enough!!!
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