Is this love?

it's been almost four years that i go back and forth to querido. sometimes i hate him so much that i don't even want to hear his name. sometimes i love him too much until i'm willing to do anything just to be there for him. but, these days, i think i fall in love with someone else. it's not like i have moved on from querido completely. it's just that i couldn't forget about this guy. let's call him cher. to be honest, i don't even know what's going on in cher's life. i really don't understand how at times he bothers my mind. why am i writing this, anyway? oh, because each time i listen to whitesnake's is this love, all i could think about is cher. he's a big deal, then because as far as i'm concerned, i only dedicate songs to the special one. is he special? can he beats querido for good? or is querido is really the one? i don't know...