Perubahan

Kumasuk ke medan bicara
Gagahnya dia berkata
Pokok yang tua harus dibangga
Binasalah kita dia berkata
Sekiranya pokok dicabut orang.

Kudengar dan terdiam
Dan kutatap tunjangnya
Terdetik di kalbuku
Masakan tidak dicabut pokok itu.

Akarnya sudah reput
Daunnya kekuningan
Dari jauh nampak megah
Kutatap batangnya yang kian berulat
Tibalah masa untuknya tumbang.

Apa gunanya kita berbangga
Akan pokok tua tak guna
Sedangkan madu habis sepah dibuang
Inikan pula pokok yang penuh celanya.

Lalu kutinggal medan itu
Dan gembiranya dia difikirnya bijak
Walhal dalam benakku
Biarlah dia gembira sekarang
Tatkala jahil tidak boleh diubat
Jika perubahan itu masih asing baginya.

SPM Results

Biology makes me... uh-huh

Tried my best

Some things can't be fixed no matter how hard we try to repair it. That cold reaction. I've had enough. I stop to understand. Let me understand myself more. You're not worth it to have a special place in my heart. I tried, okay? Don't say that i don't make efforts to make things work. If i'm not that important to you, that's fine. Treat me like a dog if you can, but i know i'm a human. You can't break me.

Aftermath

So yeah, i got 9A in SPM with a B+ (shit) and i know that he will go away from my life. I don't expect it to be this fast but seriously, that girl... he said that there's nothing going on between them but how long can i trust him? "Friend"? Are you kidding me? I just know the pain of the aftermath. And now i really think i should move on for real. Or else, i'll be the biggest joker of the century, trusting a guy like that. *sigh *sobs

For You

Dear Sal,
If you're reading this, it means you know that i avoid you. I'm sorry, but this friend thing is a burden for me. I hate to know that I can't be myself around you. A day without you could kill me and I just want to get used to it when you're really gone. I thought being a friend can make me not losing you. I was wrong. I always want it more. I just want us to stop being friends. How I should take care about your feelings every time we talked and forget about mine makes me feel trapped and I have no freedom. So, I let you go and you'll be free without me. I love you more as a friend, but I can't lie to myself each time we talked, I don't want more than friends. I know I'm being selfish and I'll cry in the meantime to forget you... but this is just temporary. Then, you'll be out of my life and I can start fresh. Actually, I don't want to make more memories with you. The more memories we have, the harder for me to forget you. You should just left at that time. You weren't suppose to come back. But you overwhelmed me and I just... lost. We've grown up, haven't we? Let me get this straight. Each time you left, it left a hole. So, for the sake of our future, you'll do the same. Let me go. Forget everything about me. Please think like we're strangers. Forget about our memories together. Just forget everything if you can. God, my tears are falling. Sal, please take care of yourself, alright? There are many people that care for you. I have my family, too. So, both of us will be fine.

Bye, Sal. Hope you have a better friend than I soon...

Love: A word of magic

Love

a magical word to describe

between the fantasy and reality

there is a melody why love is magical

really...

a history of the past can show how

the power of love could be so magical

two nemesis fought and fell in love

the past is bygones

and a new future is reborn.

a perfect man and filthy rich

feeling incomplete without love

he found no point of having a fortune

when the outside full but empty inside

he prefers to be a pauper.

a family of tons live in poverty

feeling hungry due to famine

but love makes them full

and they live happily poor

better than a king.

so love,

deep down is just a feeling

but it makes you keep the faith

and affects the things you can't see

makes it so magical, really...

Dishes Life

Spices are hot

When you eat them directly

without the meat or the greens.

It's wondering how spices could be seasoning

whereas it burns to be eaten alone.

But then

people put spices in their dishes

no matter how delicious the food as it is

because it makes their dishes more perfect

and serve with satisfaction.

Life is like a dish

it is bad to feel sad alone

it gets flat when happiness is always

that's why it's okay to feel crap

because it will make the life perfect.

Grrrrr

Why can't i be happy when hangout with my friends? That bitch, makes my mood ruined. Three bitches, actually. Shut up!!!!!! Stop making me a loophole. Arrggh!!!!